Friday, July 10, 2009

Is it really time to go home?

I am so tired... I'm so ready to go home and relax. Is it really time for me to go home and get some R&R?

I've been busting my ass in ways I didn't know possible this week, training for this new position and hoping that I do good enough to merit a raise. My brain is like swiss cheese and I swear I can hear something rattling around in my head. Is it my sanity? I think I might have lost it somewhere among the myriad paperwork scattered throughout my store and around my desk.

The last 30 days have been a true test of how much I can take before I start to crumble. Our a.c. broke down (there goes $500), Russell's truck broke down (there goes $1100), the IRS realized that I owed them $500 (there goes $500), my car broke down (say goodbye to another $331, Amber... "goodbye $331, Amber!").

I really have been trying to maintain a positive outlook and to remember the wonderful things that I'm blessed with. I have total job security (but, to be fair, I just knocked on wood to be safe), other than a few cavities we can't immediately get fixed, Russell and I are in good health. We both have wonderful, supportive families. Things could be much worse than they are and I am so thankful for that.

Still, I am simply overjoyed that I get the next 2 days to really process the last month so I can properly deal with the financial downfalls we've suffered, to figure out a gameplan on how we will work through them, and to just look towards a brighter future and hopefully a less stressful couple of weeks ahead.

I have to admit... I am extremely excited to be visiting my mother-ship (the mall) tomorrow. I go not to shop (for shame!) but to try and pawn off my gold jewelry, given to me by some ex-boyfriends who I hold absolutely no sentimental memories toward. Not shopping will be interesting and difficult for me as I'm a hopeless shopaholic, but considering that I've shredded my credit cards and have practically NO cash available, it should be something that is at least obtainable.

I hope all you fellow bloggers, Nesties, SITStahs, and 20SBs have a great weekend. What Not to Wear is calling and I am never one to turn down an hour of Stacey and Clinton!

8 comments:

Erica Leigh said...

at least you're going to the mall to make money & not spend it! i go to the mall to...walk. i mean, i'd go to shop if i could but i don't have a job right now, and no job=no money so i know what you mean when you say it's hard to go to the mall when you're a shopaholic at heart. <3

Lani said...

Stopping by from SITS:) Hope you get lots of money for that old jewelry!

Jaque Macpherson said...

Have a great sunday!!

greedygrace said...

Good luck on your mall trip!

I came by to welcome you to SITS! We're happy to have you with us!

carma said...

enjoy your visit to the Mother Ship. Even browsing can be fun :D

Stopping by to say hi and welcome to SITS. I know that you will enjoy being a part of this vibrant community of bloggers!
carma :-)

Penelope said...

Welcome to SITS! Hope things look up more.
~Penelope

Joy said...

That you refer to the mall as your mothership slays me to no end. Truly. Love it.

p.s. Welcome to the SITS community!

K said...

Sounds like quite a month. Hope you get a chance to relax soon.

Welcome to SITS!