Friday, July 10, 2009

Is it really time to go home?

I am so tired... I'm so ready to go home and relax. Is it really time for me to go home and get some R&R?

I've been busting my ass in ways I didn't know possible this week, training for this new position and hoping that I do good enough to merit a raise. My brain is like swiss cheese and I swear I can hear something rattling around in my head. Is it my sanity? I think I might have lost it somewhere among the myriad paperwork scattered throughout my store and around my desk.

The last 30 days have been a true test of how much I can take before I start to crumble. Our a.c. broke down (there goes $500), Russell's truck broke down (there goes $1100), the IRS realized that I owed them $500 (there goes $500), my car broke down (say goodbye to another $331, Amber... "goodbye $331, Amber!").

I really have been trying to maintain a positive outlook and to remember the wonderful things that I'm blessed with. I have total job security (but, to be fair, I just knocked on wood to be safe), other than a few cavities we can't immediately get fixed, Russell and I are in good health. We both have wonderful, supportive families. Things could be much worse than they are and I am so thankful for that.

Still, I am simply overjoyed that I get the next 2 days to really process the last month so I can properly deal with the financial downfalls we've suffered, to figure out a gameplan on how we will work through them, and to just look towards a brighter future and hopefully a less stressful couple of weeks ahead.

I have to admit... I am extremely excited to be visiting my mother-ship (the mall) tomorrow. I go not to shop (for shame!) but to try and pawn off my gold jewelry, given to me by some ex-boyfriends who I hold absolutely no sentimental memories toward. Not shopping will be interesting and difficult for me as I'm a hopeless shopaholic, but considering that I've shredded my credit cards and have practically NO cash available, it should be something that is at least obtainable.

I hope all you fellow bloggers, Nesties, SITStahs, and 20SBs have a great weekend. What Not to Wear is calling and I am never one to turn down an hour of Stacey and Clinton!


Erica Leigh said...

at least you're going to the mall to make money & not spend it! i go to the mall to...walk. i mean, i'd go to shop if i could but i don't have a job right now, and no job=no money so i know what you mean when you say it's hard to go to the mall when you're a shopaholic at heart. <3

Lani said...

Stopping by from SITS:) Hope you get lots of money for that old jewelry!

Jaque Macpherson said...

Have a great sunday!!

greedygrace said...

Good luck on your mall trip!

I came by to welcome you to SITS! We're happy to have you with us!

carma said...

enjoy your visit to the Mother Ship. Even browsing can be fun :D

Stopping by to say hi and welcome to SITS. I know that you will enjoy being a part of this vibrant community of bloggers!
carma :-)

Penelope said...

Welcome to SITS! Hope things look up more.

Joy said...

That you refer to the mall as your mothership slays me to no end. Truly. Love it.

p.s. Welcome to the SITS community!

Anonymous said...

Sounds like quite a month. Hope you get a chance to relax soon.

Welcome to SITS!