Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Breakdown...

Well, I had somewhat of a break-down today. Luckily, I have my awesome friend, Drea, to be there for me. She seriously sat there and listened to me bitch and complain and cry hysterically for like an hour and said absolutely nothing... just listened. It was so sweet and I'm so lucky to have a friend like her.

She is the best friend EVER.

I'm just feeling so hopeless lately. I know it has a lot to do with my brother in law moving in with us, and the stress that I feel in regards to that. But it's also the feeling that internally, there is something wrong with me.

I'm sure there are plenty of people out there with irregular periods... but this whole "not ovulating" situation is really starting to weigh heavily on my shoulders.

As if that wasn't enough, I'm also stressed out about money. I have such a headache.

On a more positive note, today I received some of the birthday gifts I ordered for Russell. I'm pretty excited, they actually looked really nice. There are still many more to come, but just getting these was kind of refreshing. Getting stuff in the mail is always fun! Plus, I love when our UPS guy delivers... he wears the craziest things. It's about 30 degrees outside, so it's definitely cold, but I'm wearing a long sleeve t-shirt, thick black sweat pants, and a heavy jacket and I'm fine. The UPS guy that delivers here came in wearing a beanie with a hat over it, a neck warmer/guard, two jackets over his UPS shirt, and a thick pair of pants with what I can only assume were at least two pairs of socks under his boots. He's also not very nice... he is the least sociable person I've come into contact with up here... so that kind of makes it even more funny.

As far as TTC goes, I really have nothing interesting to report. But then again, I usually don't... I'm wondering if I should just make my blog a daily journal type adventure as opposed to the chronicle of me attempting to get pregnant. I think it might be a bit more amusing that way.

If I decide to do that, I can regal my readers (well, *reader* for now) with awesome stories of my day as opposed to just "I'm not pregnant / I am pregnant / I haven't ovulated," etc.

I think I'll do it!

1 comment:

Heather said...

You have a blog! I just started one myself. I'm sorry you are having TTC problems. I also went through the same problem with not ovulating, and basically just problems since going off the pill last December. So I'm here if you want to compare stories. =)
-Heather (H&W from the nest)